I am so meek, meek, meek and meek. Outspoken I am not. Submissive..hmm…I guess.. not the BDSM kind. I cried when I watch sad movies, cried when I National Geographic where cute innocent animals were killed or eaten by other animals, I even cried when I watch anime or read manga. Yeah, I am THAT lame.
That does not help with my current situation. Being unemployed sucks. No money = no shopping = no new stuff = :( when I’m seeing my friends go on a shopping spree.
I went for an interview that supposedly should be on 3 pm, then I was told the person is not in yet but he will be in on 4 pm. Then I waited until 5 pm, still no sign of the interviewer. My mom kept pestering me to come home. Seems like they have this habit of making people wait for their convenience. Since this is the 2nd time they did this to me. But no, I really need this job. Perseverance what was I thought that time.
Then at 5.30, he showed up. Steer me into a room. No apologies no nothing. Just ” Please sit down n tell me about urself”. He keeps giving me snide remarks, such as ” I would like to b frank to you, most companies,including ours wouldnt hire you, because of ur lack of experiences and gave me a ‘I-am-better-than-you-peasant-look’. By then I knew during the first 5 minutes of the interviews I know he wouldnt hire me. What I wanted to do was told him off. ” Then its better than to waste my and your precious time to continue this interview if I’m not going cut it. But Nooooo, the meek-little-me inside said perseverance. Maybe he will re-considers. It’s still too early to make judgement.
Then he kept asking me questions such as my thoughts on medical leave, punctuality <—this precisely kinda made me want to punch him in the face, why I want to work for the co., blah blah…all during the conversations he kept giving snide remarks and W.T.H? examples.
Lots of “Ifs” came out to accompany his snide remarks. “If you were hired” like nearly 4-5 times. Yes I get ur drift If I were hired. But then he was kind of surprised when I said I only will be available in March as I will be going for other interviews as well (being optimistic here) plus I did say “well , you did say IF I WERE hired, it means I have to keep my options open IF I didnt get this job”.
After the interview ended (no more snide remarks), my mom who was picking me up was angry as she saw my red were kind of red and watery. I was relieved I didnt spill any waterfall during the interview. But I think he knew as my voice was kind of shaky. Darn! Darn! Darn! I seriously hate when I could not stop the tears, it keep flowing n flowing.. There a lot of things I would like to say to him but I just kept it inside. Mom told me —> how meek I am,that I should say something when he was putting me down, it doesnt matter if I get the job or not and I am not a beggar. I have the qualifications, it is just the matter of time. She also not fond of the idea that IF I were hired, I have to work under his supervision. Yeah me n him will be best bud. That and I will be crying non-stop that it will eventually I will become tourists attraction or cause serious flood.
My aunt to me to buckle up, be more outspoken, sell urself (not the hooker kind tho) during any interviews. Wish I were more like my mom and aunt.
So, in short no more meek little me.. say what I have to say. I seriously regretting that I didnt get to say want I wanted to. And be aware of a man that smells like he’s using a cigarette scented shower gel and dirty long fingernails, well it looks DIRTY to me and conduct an interview with you in a close door room with no air-ventilation.
Trust Me.
